To Be

To be or not to be,
I just want to be free,
I want to already see what's my destiny,
I feel like I'm stuck on a tree,
is this a blessing or a decree.

Oh, life it comes in so many angles north and south,
I have no clue what it's about.

Is this abundance, or is it a drought?
There is so much speculation and self-doubt.

I know in my conscious mind and I'm well aware,
I'm exactly where I need to be I'm right there,
but that doesn't make it any less of a scare,
it's so hard & painful to bare,
what's going on with my life it feels so unfair.

What's left to do is sit with it,
I'll continue as hard as it is and not quit,
no matter how I see it fit,
or if I don't like it a bit,
I'll learn to sit within the shit.

Written with love by: Benny W